talk is cheap.

i dunno why i continue to hang out with him cause whenever i do, i have the worst time possible. last night = no fun. laaaaame! he sucks. haha. whatevs. i'm over it.

chiodos TONIGHT. so stoked. and i fully intend on posting a st. louis/treaty of paris entry when karen finally fucking sends me some of the pictures. UGH.

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: chiodos: life is a perception of your own reality

i'm done with dudes.

i'm going to st. louis tomorrow for treaty of paris/jack's mannequin. that along with some sonic better cheer me up. i'm counting on you, lemon creamslush! i think phil's getting us on the guest-list and that makes me smile more than a little. should be a good show. and i'll be getting out of here for more than 24 hours! yay!

Current Mood: enraged

ok, this is an amazing episode of jimmy kimmel. james franco, tommy lee, and from first to last?! i'm a little disappointed with the fact that tommy lee has been a vegetarian for 3 months now... he has a hot dog named after him at rockstar dogs for crying out loud! so disappointed. *sigh*

edit: wow, they're doing "two as one"! i thought that wasn't even the single? HAHAHAHA. matt's guitar says "unicorns rock". and he looks bangin'. his complexion is amazing and he still looks like he's 12. haha. travis dyed his hair blonde?! ew. this is the dumbest post ever. haha, they're doing "god, if i wasn't such a pessimist..." instead. i think i like it better than "fuck" actually. hmmmm.

Current Mood: amused

you intrigue me like no one before
it may be wrong to get to know you more.

i can see myself falling in line
like a hundred girls you've had over time.

i'm smarter than this, i know better than this
but there's something you got that's tough to resist.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: hilary duff.

i just had an amazing conversation with this girl i don't even know. it was the best conversation i've had in a VERY long time. i feel so enlightened or something. haha. and for one hour, i forgot the boy existed. i don't think anybody has been able to make me do that. maybe i just need to surround myself with new people...

ps: i just realized it totally sounds like i'm crushing on this girl. HAHA. i'm not. i just seem to have a connection with her or something. *ok, stop talking cause you're making yourself sound even more like a dyke.* bi. i mean bye. :)

Current Mood: refreshed

we went at midnight on thursday. craaaazy. basically the dark knight owns. it's one of the best movies i've ever seen. heath ledger is fucking incredible and if he doesn't get the oscar (or at least a nomination!) for his performance as the joker, i think heads are prolly gonna roll. his voice creeps me the fuck out tho. speaking of creepy voices... seriously, christian bale?! is it really necessary for him to talk like he's in the middle of sex as batman? his voice is so fucking deep and he breathes all heavy and shit. when i noticed it like halfway through, i was giggling like a schoolgirl for the remainder of the flick. he needs to take it down a notch. as for bruce wayne... i think christian bale is an amazing actor. but as an amazing actor, shouldn't you be able to switch it up a bit? i suppose it's not his fault tho. just that when he was dressed up in his little suits & ties taking skanks out to dinner, all i saw was him playing patrick bateman in american psycho. i was half-expecting him to start running down an apartment hallway naked with a chainsaw. then i began to wonder where jared leto was... nevermind. ok, twoface. ummm, fuck yeaaah! aaron eckhart stole the fucking show. the entire film was pretty much based around his character and the battle between good & evil. and for the record, i'd bang him as twoface or harvey dent. haaahaha. bud i'd rather just do aaron eckhart. maggie gyllenhaal was kinda disappointing. i like her and i think she's an ok actress, but i dunno. didn't really do it for me in this role. ok, i'm done. but i really wanna see this movie like 489 more times. and in imax too please!

Current Mood: good

i think martin and i will make beautiful babies one day in the not-so-distant future...



haha. i <3 you yahoo horoscope...

If you're feeling weird about someone you've recently met, that person might be harboring a secret you'd rather not know. Follow your gut instinct and keep your distance. There's plenty of fish in the sea, so skip the sharks.

if there's one thing i've learned...it's that we never feel the heat until we get burned.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: the spill canvas: appreciation and the bomb

i'm sooooooo stoked about the new batman.

i'm in love with aaron eckhart.

Current Mood: excited

who needs warped tour?! i'm going to see boys like girls, good charlotte, metro station, and the maine on tuesday and wednesday. fo' free. and i get to watch blg soundcheck on wednesday in milwaukee! i'm pretty stoked. meet'n'greet too i think. wooo! <--- sarcasm. not about the soundcheck tho. i'm honestly excited about that. i hope it works out.

basically the only reason i get excited about good charlotte shows now is cause i wanna catch a glimpse of the blonde bombshells they're currently dating. hilary duff almost made me pee in my pants. i can't imagine what seeing paris hilton would do to me. i'd rather see nicole richie, but i highly doubt she's on tour. what happened to those boys??? :/

also pumped to see the maine and metro station (dance partyyyyyyy!). love both of them and haven't seen either one. these shows are gonna own. :)

ps: brad...thanks for buying the katy perry cd for me!!!

you're as fake as the moans you make.
you're as weak as the hearts you break.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: the maine: the way we talk

i just wanna break you down so badly.
i trip over everything you say.
i just wanna break you down so badly...in the worst way.

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: taking back sunday: make damn sure

what the FUCK is wrong with me?!

seriously, somebody slap me. knock some sense into me.

why do i let him get me so riled up?

...

when he just lets me down time after time?

the worst part is every time this happens, i feel like it's my fault. like i'm not good enough. or like i did something wrong.

fuck that.

Current Mood: grumpy

it's two thousand fucking eight! explain to me why i can't recover a text edit document from a fucking imac g5 after it shut the fuck down on me?! fucking piece of shit. this is why i use fucking pen and paper. jesus christ.

Current Mood: enraged

no warped tour. i don't think it has fully sunk in yet. but i'm not happy. i don't even wanna go to any of the shows now. :( i hate being spoiled sometimes. you just get let down more... but it was the only thing i was looking forward to. life sucks. :(

Current Mood: enraged

knew i shouldn't have gotten my hopes up...

stupid. me. him. it. the entire situation. like i'm just realizing this now? no. deep down, i knew it was a bad idea all along. i just didn't wanna admit it.

Current Mood: numb
Current Music: matchbook romance: lovers & liars

looks like i have a reason to go to the rock star party as ashlee now...

:)

we'll see if he actually shows up...

aww, but that means no more corset. :( oh well

you know life is ok when your biggest issue is whether you should dress up as ashlee simpson or amy lee for a rock star party. haha. runners-up were courtney love, monique powell, and amy winehouse. all would've been fun. karen and i were considering costume changes so we could be like 5 different people. haha.

can you tell i'm stoked about this party?

i probably shouldn't get my hopes up...

Current Mood: happy

the more time we waste the less time i get to taste you.

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: gym class heroes.

alright, that's it, i've had enough.
i'm on my way to you.
it's nauseating and i'm sick of waiting
for all these pointless calls to go through.

but no, i'm not a skeptic anymore.
at last i see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for.
the moisture in the air is begging for release.
and the memory of your stare is raining down on me.

hypothetically if you were point a
and theoretically if was point b
we would be frantically melting
into one massive point that could overcome anything.

i'm constantly working through the mileage in my head.
i'm calculating, yes i'm sick of waiting
how many hours left until i reach your bed?

but no, i'm not a skeptic anymore.
at last i see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for.
the moisture in the air is begging for release.
and the memory of your stare is raining down on me.

hypothetically if you were point a
and theoretically if was point b
we would be frantically melting
into one massive point that could overcome anything.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: the spill canvas: teleport a & b

i'm really fucking hot. my mom won't turn the air on. seriously?! it's like 95 fucking degrees out. at one point today, karen's van read 100 degrees. that's ridiculous.

i think my outfit for karen's rock star birthday party is complete! er, outfits. who i go as kinda depends on if a certain someone goes or not. but i'm betting he won't. and karen and i might do a costume change regardless. haha. it's gonna be badass. i've been walking around my house in a corset all night. sexy. ya know, except for the fact that i have no boobs. haaaaahaaaha.

what's up with "public enemies" filming in wisconsin and indiana lately!? gay.

we finally found corn dogs tonight. haha. AMAZING.

frederick's of hollywood = favorite store.

i'm obsessed with 80's pop tunes lately.

i love hanging out with my mom.

i'm on the phone with karen... she's serenading me with "total eclipse of the heart". i've got her on an 80's pop kick too apparently...

...and she's doing the police report for our run-in with the deer. she has to draw a picture of the accident...and she's drawing a "stick deer". wow... she's sending me a scan of it. awesome.

edit: here it is... haaahahah. did a 4 year old draw this!??!



did i mention how hot it is? i might die.

Current Mood: hot

seriously, is it just the weather or what?!?! why does everybody want ass lately?!

Current Mood: amused

hahahahahahahahaha.

omg.

is this seriously happening right now?

it's even more entertaining cause i'm not even involved in the conversation.

karen's my middle-(wo)man.

Current Mood: horny